Tag: why

I always pray to Apollo before blood draws for a quick and easy go because I have hard veins to find and sometimes I leave with no fewer than three holes in each arm- so I owed an offering. I’m 98% sure I fucked said offering up last night, and less than 24hrs later, in the middle of my shift at work, I come down with a cold/flu and am now losing my voice.

*to the tune of maybelline*

Maybe it’s coincidence…maybe I fucked up~

Again??

I find the blog of the cutest (trans- it’s relevant) boy and omg perfect content; it’s a mix of ironic sass, pretty pictures, cool content, ect ect.

And THEN, out of the blue… they say that asexuality is a kink, compares it to furries, and says asexuals don’t belong in the LGBTQA(AAAAAAA) community.

Why does this keep happening. I follow the perfect blog and then five minutes of scrolling later I need a gif of Mona Lisa Vito from My Cousin Vinny going “oh my god what a fuckin’ nightmare!”

Why

When you find the perfect blog and press the follow button, then ten seconds later find an anon on their page saying “oh you’re so brave for defending yourself from those people on Twitter saying you it was cultural appropriation for you to wear a bindi! You’re right, it’s totally okay if it’s for spiritual reasons!”

UGH this is so fucking complicated. The Boy is Catholic. I am a pagan. However, I was baptized Episcopalian(?), so am I still considered part of the church, and therefore if we got married it would be considered sacramental? Or because I am currently a polytheist, it would be a marriage with disparity of cult?

Supposedly, if we go through some sort of rigorous testing process and get permission from the local bishop, a marriage would be valid in the eyes of the church without me having to convert, but it would be considered non sacramental. Basically we’d be allowed but God, Jesus, and the pope would frown upon us for the rest of our lives. And the intricate policies of the church aside, he’s from one of those huge, extended, very religious catholic families. Would he be able to stand in front of his family with a non-Christian wife without rebuke? I doubt it.

Like, it won’t likely happen for years, but that’s my end game, and I’m literally so fucked up thinking about the future right now, especially when I know I can’t count on anything. My lungs feel like a balloon waiting to pop

I didn’t get into my safety school. They reinstated my application and denied me in the same day. I cried in public when I found out

I’m down to three schools, all on the other side of the country. I hate Ohio so much, but I’d be so beyond fucking grateful to get into Ohio State right now. I also didn’t get in to the summer art internship program, so unless I can find another job, I’m also going back to Ohio for the summer

I continue to massively disappoint

EDIT:

They reinstated me this morning, but the date on their rejection letter (that they emailed to me also this morning) is yesterday??? What the fuck is this what the fuck what the fuck I can’t handle this stress

EDIT EDIT:

While there was massive clerical error on the universities part, the art department rejected me independently of the university. So. That’s that.