@staff I’ve deleted a number of posts on 5/4/12, between the hours of about ten and midnight- possibly as late as one am. Can you assist me in recovery the posts somehow?

So I fucked up and lost years of work

I spent hours last night collecting my various poetry from different sources, some of them being from my blog, then methodically deleting [who knows why] them from my blog and I was so goddamned tired that I didn’t save the open word document that they were all in or bother naming it either before putting my computer to sleep so when I opened my laptop this morning everything had gone to shit, all files lost,

Years. Years of work lost

Needless to say, on top of student loans calls, I’m a wreck and this morning has had a lot of crying

That internal scream when your interviewer says the person chosen for the position has to be “mentally and emotionally stable” and you know it ain’t gon be you

Co-worker: Is the framing manager in?
Me: The framing manager cannot be “in”, for she does not exist on this plane, but on a higher dimension accessable only through the void. She is the one, the Omni, the all seeing eye endless and indestructible
Me: She’s in the office.

Mood

Standing in front of open blinds at midnight with all the lights blazing, eating leftover sweet chili calamari in nothing but panties and a tee-shirt three sizes too big

I lost my devotional bracelet for Hermes

Some things have gone missing in the move, but I had the bracelet on me for the trip, It was in a pocket or a purse the whole way. Then, when I decided not to set up an altar yet [which is where I usually put it when I’m not wearing it] and just put it down somewhere I thought it’d be safe…it disappeared.

A decade of me being queer and out to my parents, and they still wonder if me having a boyfriend makes me straight

GIVE ME FRIES

Does anyone else read words one way but pronounce them another?

So, I’m American so when I say words like laboratory, I stress the first syllable as “LAB-rah-tory” when speaking, but when reading or writing it, my mind provides the more British pronunciation of “Lah-BOR-ah-tory”. Its not even all official pronunciations either- like, it’s a #PronouncingThingsIncorrectly vine in my head, but the words come out just fine when I open my mouth

Does anyone else do that?

I don’t post my poems anymore because I figured I’d save them for a little book, but I just scribbled one that’s only partly done and I feel it so strongly that I want people to read and understand but that doesnt happen

I want someone to hear my singing and sing with me