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So I fucked up and lost years of work

I spent hours last night collecting my various poetry from different sources, some of them being from my blog, then methodically deleting [who knows why] them from my blog and I was so goddamned tired that I didn’t save the open word document that they were all in or bother naming it either before putting my computer to sleep so when I opened my laptop this morning everything had gone to shit, all files lost,

Years. Years of work lost

Needless to say, on top of student loans calls, I’m a wreck and this morning has had a lot of crying

I fucked up so bad

So I’m sort of in shock and sick and my parents are probably going to kill me. I thought that I had applied to Syracuse. I submitted my portfolio. I paid a huge fee. But my main application somehow is magically not only incomplete, but vastly empty and not only does this suck because somehow I massively fucked up, and am down another school, I had no idea where that huge fee went or to who????

So I’m sort of just…

I literally cannot deal with this right now and I don’t know what to do.